Piggy-backing off my previous post, I’m in an odd mix of emotions today. On one side is my “reality”, I’ve been sick for a week, I hate my job, wife hates being not being able to stay at home with the kids and raise them and so hates her job, financially completely broke, and seemingly no immediate light at the end of this 9 month tunnel we’ve been in.
Yet, today I’m strangely at ease with the fact that I’m truly blessed. My kids have brought more joy to my life in the past few months than I’ve every paid attention to before. They’re the best. My wife is extremely patient with me, tough when I’m sick and don’t do much of anything. I know I’m hard to live with, I have extremely high expectations and am close to a perfectionist I guess. I think the only thing that makes me bearable is that I’m very patient and eventually will just bury whatever I was upset about and try and forget about it.
With regards to my “reality”, I also am frequently reminded that there are, 1.) people who are much sicker than I am and have been for longer, 2.) that I have a job to complain about, 3.) that I have a wife who wants nothing more than to be an amazing mother for our kids, 4.) that I have two adorable, smart, healthy kids, 5.) and even though we’re broke we still have more than enough to eat, and a more than adequate roof over our heads.
Thank you God, may I continually see things through your Son’s eyes and not through my own all time.
bill says
Good perspective though it is hard to maintain. That's one of the things the church is for. We need to keep reminding each other of the right perspective.
bill says
Good perspective though it is hard to maintain. That’s one of the things the church is for. We need to keep reminding each other of the right perspective.