It’s been around seven months now since I lost my job, confidence, weekends and evenings. Really didn’t know what I had until I lost it. Seems very trite to say, but very true. I have a good life and much to be thankful for, wonderful family and the basic necessities of life.
I’m very appreciative of losing my job actually, it has taught me numerous lessons and opened my eyes to just how much more value the important things in my life have. Regretfully though, at this point I’m so busy trying to be the provider I was for my family that I don’t have the time to spend with them that I would like.
I start my 3rd job Sunday at Starbuck’s. Just part time, and basically to get the clock started to start receiving benefits. I’m hoping I can leave my other full-time job as soon as possible. I’ve written about it before, so won’t go into detail, but just not where I want to be and definitely not doing what I’d like to be doing.
I fear I’ve taken a gut-check and it’s sent me spinning. The lack of confidence is really annoying. I look at job postings now and just think I’m not qualified for them or can’t do them. I really believe for the most part I’m not qualified for the jobs I “want” to get into. That makes me feel like I’ve completely wasted the 7 years I spent in the travel industry.
Just frustration. Just want to get back to the days of when I was able to allow my wife to stay home and raise our two wonderful kids. It’s what she really enjoys and feels called to be doing. Would be a great present to give her this year for Christmas, just don’t feel like it’s within each.